Monthly Archives: June 2010

Happy Father’s Day!

Happy Father’s Day to this guy.  I grew up as a Daddy’s girl, and now that I’m back at home I have the opportunity to enjoy a new relationship with my father in which he’s becoming my friend 🙂 My dad has always been one of the biggest supporters of my brother and I. No matter what we choose to do my dad (as seen in the picture in his Ole Miss gear) whole-heartedly and excitedly cheers us on.  We are so very lucky to have been raised by such a wonderful and loving father.  Happy Father’s Day!

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My Favorite.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

I don’t remember how I first stumbled across this verse, but it’s one of the few I have had memorized for the majority of my life.  It’s probably the first verse I memorized on my own, reference and all, outside of sunday school.  It’s been a verse that I’ve turned to on countless occasions when looking for reassurance, or peace, or to calm anxiety and fear.  “Do not fear” you can’t  get more straightforward than that.  This message is prevalent throughout the Bible, but this is the verse  I have always turned to.  However it wasn’t until recently while reading Beth Moore’s book, So Long Insecurity, that I really read the verse that directly proceeds it…

I took you from the ends of the earth, from the farthest corners I called you.  I said, ‘You are My servant’; I have chosen you and have not rejected you. Isaiah 41:9

For me this was a very special moment.  An equally momentous verse right in front of my favorite.  How long I have been reading Isaiah 41 and how long did I skim verse 9 without taking the time to attempt to grasp what it says.  He calls us, He chooses us, He never rejects us; and after all that He promises to strengthen and help us.  To fully bask in what it means to be chosen by God was a beautiful experience; a very special moment.  In a world where rejection and fear are far too common, these verses speak out against that darkness for the love and provision of the Lord.  For me it is a message of belonging, of being chosen, and of being upheld (and held) by God himself. I love it!

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What day is it?

So at about 4:30 this afternoon my mom and my brother informed me that it was Thursday.  I literally had no idea.  I still feel confused. I don’t know what happened to this week.  My mind cannot accept the fact that it is in fact Thursday and tomorrow is Friday.  It went by too fast.

I really liked this week. I got to spend time with my brother who is moving to Mississippi on Monday. My grandmother has been staying with us while she undergoes radiation therapy for breast cancer (she’s doing really well), which has been really fun! She lives in Missouri so we don’t get to see her a whole lot, and never for a full week.  I’ve been busy taking online classes and trying to teach myself some web design so I can help my mom with the website for the non-profit we are trying to start.  It’s been a really perfect week and the weekend is going to be just as wonderful; filled with friends, a float trip, and father’s day!  I think I’m mostly just sad this week is over, but I think it’s just going to keep getting better.  I have felt endlessly happy this week.  Life is good.  I have never felt that life has gone by as fast as these last 6 months; it’s insane and half the time I feel like I cannot quite compute the fact that it’s June. Pretty sure this summer is going to be over before I know it, but at least right now I’m really excited.  I love this feeling.

Me and Brian having lunch in Oxford, MS

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The Eyes of a 10 year old Boy

There is an adorable blonde haired boy running around outside our house today.  I’m guessing and placing him around age 1o.  His father is the contractor who is repairing the wall around our house, and while his dad works he and his grandfather are exploring the backyard.  I sat above them on our balcony reading a book and enjoying the stormy day, but the boy’s remarks and questions kept me more interested in his conversation than the book I was reading.  Soon enough he bounded up the stairs to the balcony, and after announcing the fact that he had made it the top while his grandfather was still on only the second step, looked out and said, “Grandpa you’ve got to get up here it’s a beautiful view [long pause]”.  I thought yes the view is beautiful; the trees that you can see off our balcony looked especially green against the grey sky and cover the ground as far you can see blocking out the city that surrounds us.  I was sitting there reflecting and looking off into the distance as he finished his sentence, “Grandpa you’ve got to get up here it’s a beautiful view…into the pool”.  Yes that’s what had captured this little boys attention; you could straight into the pool, and it was beautiful.  I about laughed out loud, but that’s what you get when looking at life through the eyes of boy who was at that point walking up and down the balcony examining the pool from all angles. Upon the arrival of his grandfather, and after a quick wave to me, he began contemplating what the possibilities were of jumping off the balcony and into the pool without hitting the concrete (yes it’s been done, no I did not think it wise to share that information with him).  Yes, he was captivated by the beautiful view and he hadn’t even looked past my backyard.

This got me thinking; I wonder how often I miss the beauty of what’s right in front me because I’m too busy looking off into the distance? Also how many times have I asked myself that, and many more times will I need to be reminded?  How often do I day dream about my future instead of reveling in the beauty of the day that God has given me?  I think I needed to be reminded that right here and right now – this very day is beautiful.  I needed a little shift in perspective.

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one of my favorites…

I love this song, and I wanted to share.  It’s by Jars of Clay

“Love Song For A Savior”

In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she’ll understand the meaning of it all
He’s more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she’ll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He’ll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she’ll pray,

“I want to fall in love with You”

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can’t feel the chains on their souls

He’s more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we’ll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He’ll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we’ll pray,

“I want to fall in love with You”

It seems too easy to call you “Savior”,
Not close enough to call you “God”
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

“I want to fall in love with You”

“my heart beats for You”

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Life Lately.

So life has been interesting.  Nothing like I thought it would be, but everyday is good.  I still have no idea what I want to do with my life, and I still have no idea what to do about grad school, but I do know I’ll be ok.  I do know that everyday I’ve been in Tulsa has been a blessing, and everyday I’ve gotten to spend with my family and sweet friends has been wonderful.  I have found I like Tulsa a whole lot more than I ever thought I would, and I’ve been so lucky to be surrounded by such wonderful people.

Eventually (and soon) I have to go back to North Carolina and make the grad school decision, but until then I have many things here that are keeping me busy.  My mom and I are attempting to start a project that has long been on her heart, and I’m really excited to help her with it.  We are also going to spend some time with Dr. Allbright in Houston working with him and learning from him.  That will happen towards the end of June, and can’t get here fast enough!

Right now I’m in Oxford, MS with the family checking out Ole Miss where my brother Brian will play football next year.  I’m so excited for him and this opportunity.  You cannot imagine how God has gone ahead of him and worked everything out.  It’s all coming together and I can’t wait to see what happens next! We are headed back to Tulsa tomorrow and gearing up for a busy week.  It’s so easy for me to get discouraged as I watch life fly by and I’m just not sure where I should be, but I’m trying to just stop and relax and do the work in front of me each day. To really enjoy the blessing and provision that God provides each day.  Waiting is difficult, but I’m trying.  Sometimes I feel like I’m loosing my mind, but in the end all is well.  I have absolutely no idea where all of this is going, and I cannot believe it’s been a year since I graduated college (I had it all figured out back then haha…).  Some days it’s exciting and some days it’s daunting and I’d rather hide under the covers, but quite frankly it would be silly for me not to enjoy this time I have been given, so that’s what I’m trying to do daily (even though it’s difficult).

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Jehovah-Jireh

Throughout the Bible the Lord is given many names, but the name that has been on my heart the past couple of weeks has been Jehovah-Jireh, translated literally “the Lord sees” but usually written as “the Lord provides” or “the Lord will provide”.  The name comes from Genesis 22 when the Lord asks Abraham to sacrifice his son.  When God saved Abraham’s son, Abraham praised Jehovah-Jireh because the Lord had seen to all of his needs.  The Lord saw what he needed and was able to provide for him because Abraham placed all of his trust in the Lord.  This is a story I have been familiar with since sunday school, but reading it now has brought much deeper significance.  Do I trust God enough to let Him work in my life?  Do I have that kind of trust that the Lord will see and meet all of my needs; needs I may not even be aware of?  He is Jehovah-Jireh; he sees all of our needs, and he provides.

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