This time last week I was just getting back from packing up my apartment in North Carolina. My mom and I drove from Tulsa to Winston-Salem so we could finally pack everything up. I’ve been living in Tulsa since December on medical leave from grad school, but I just recently made the decision that I am definitely going to stay in Tulsa. It was such a strange feeling boxing everything up, and even though I wasn’t in Winston-Salem for very long there were so many memories; lots of old feelings and emotions. It was a pretty hard couple of days. It was definitely a time of remembering the things that I had wanted so badly when I graduated college, and the decisions I made that got me to North Carolina. However, it was also a time of reflection about how much I have changed, and how greatly my life has changed since that time. My mom and I both came to the same conclusion – that even though life is so much more “up in the air” it is also so much better. The path God has me on is often confusing, often challenging, and often leaves me thinking “WHAT?! How did I get here?” but I have been blessed beyond anything I could have imagined. This is better. I may not have it all figured out – but I’m happy. This may not fit into my perfect plan – but it’s left me more content and peaceful than I have been before. I would never have believed I’d find myself back in Tulsa – ever. Yet, here I am, and it’s exactly where I need to be.
Monthly Archives: August 2010
Today is my lovely mother’s birthday! I’m so excited that I’m home to celebrate with her for the first time in 5 years. We just got home from spending a week and a half driving to North Carolina and back, and I love that I got to spend time with her just relaxing, and playing, and driving half way across the country – because really when are just the two of us ever going to do that again? Happy Birthday Mom – I love you so very much. I am so blessed to have you as my mother.
made me think of this song…
Isn’t it awesome that we so naturally lift our hands, and even fall to our knees in times of great joy and triumph?! We are truly created to worship.
“Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body”. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20
This scripture has been on my heart for the last few weeks, so I thought it was time to share. I think these verses say it all; you are not your own. I belong so completely to the one who created me, my body is not my own. I love that I belong so fully to the Lord, he bought me with the price of His only son; that is love. I belong fully and completely to the one who loves me, and I want to live a life that honors that commitment. I want to respect the price He paid for me; and so I will choose to honor God with my body. 1 Corinthians speaks clearly on sexual immorality and even says that sexual sin is sin against your body; sin against the temple of the Holy Spirit. I believe this is true, I believe that sin against your body requires the healing of your body. I believe in grace and forgiveness, and in the realm of sexual sin I believe in complete healing and restoration – and I’m so thankful He freely offers this.
Purity is precious. It is something to be valued and something to take care of, and cherish as you cherish yourself – the temple of the Holy Spirit. The scripture above is one of my favorites because it resonates in my heart and mind. You were bought at a price – how amazing is that?! I love it. The Lord God took action and bought each and every one of us with a price. It cost Him something precious, so that we could belong to Him; it’s my thankfulness for this gift that pushes me to live a life of purity and integrity. I love the way I belong to Him. That’s happiness, that’s joy.
July was incredible.
It started off with a trip to Houston with my mom to do some work at the Liberating the Bruised Ministry, which was incredible. Not only were we able to do some wonderful things through Christ, but I also got to see some of favorite people from college while I was in Texas. It was the perfect to start to a month that never stopped. I was able to spend to the 4th in Galveston with the wonderful family of one of my best friends – and I could not imagine a better holiday. There were fireworks, swimming in the bay, and a 4 year old with attitude who could dance to Justin Bieber’s Baby (and only Baby) probably better than me – kid had moves.
Then, the day after I got back to Tulsa, my two beautiful and hilarious cousins came to visit for the Justin Bieber concert. I won’t even try to pretend it wasn’t awesome. We loved it. We sang, we danced, we waved our glow-sticks in the air – we all had Bieber Fever.
The next weekend I went back to Waco for the first time since I graduated from Baylor last year. It was such a weird experience approaching campus in the middle summer when everything was quiet and still. I went to visit a friend of mine who works in Waco, but spent most of the weekend in Austin visiting more friends, however those few moments at Baylor were pretty strange. It was funny because it used to feel kind of like home when I arrived back on campus, but this July I just felt strangely disconnected. I can’t wait to go back for homecoming when everyone I love will be there too – I mean really, friends are the best part of college.
Next I was off to California for the first time EVER! It was amazing. If I could have thought of a reason to stay I would have. I was able to visit friends in San Francisco and Santa Monica, so I got a little taste of both northern and southern Cali. Guess what I found in the car while driving to Laguna Beach (and yes, I saw LC’s house)…none other than the Justin Bieber CD, so yeah we listened to the Biebs.
As soon as I got home my parents and I headed to Oxford, MS to visit Brian for his 21st birthday. We were only in MS for one full day, but it was so fun for the four of us to be together. I even got to visit Graceland on the way home. It was a very big deal. My family told me they would absolutely not take me to Graceland, but then they surprised me and now I have officially visited Elivis’ house. Guess what else…Brian has pair of shoes that are just like the ones Justin Bieber wore during his concert – I was pretty excited, Brian a little less so.
So July has now ended, but it was wonderful while it lasted. Lots of new beginnings, and I couldn’t be more excited. I’m sure you’ll be hearing more about all the new things soon. So for now I’ll leave you with this…
“You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in You.” Isaiah 26:3
I feel like so many times I settle, or am tempted to settle for less than perfect peace. God offers us perfect peace. He is peace. He offers us Himself as we trust in Him. Recently I’ve had several conversations, with close friends of mine, about anxiety, stress, and worry. I’m so blessed to be surrounded with women who love the Lord and choose to seek Him first, but we are all faced with bouts of anxiety and worry. Here in Isaiah, and throughout scripture we see God offer perfect peace. Peace that is completely whole, and puts our hearts at rest. It is such a beautiful concept, seemingly simple in scripture, yet so many people get pushed around daily by anxious or worrisome thoughts. I don’t want to accept less than that perfect peace. I want to always trust to the point that my heart is comforted by that peace. I don’t want to settle for being almost at peace. I don’t want to settle for the idea that it will all work out, but leave my heart in turmoil. I want to trust the Lord and keep my mind steadfast and claim that perfect peace that He so generously offers.
Thank you heavenly Father for your Perfect Peace.